It's been a long week. Preparing for a parish Christmas Pageant, a Youth Liturgy, board meetings and CCD classes- dealing with a teething baby and a sick husband- and preparing for the homecoming of my youngest sister and her boyfriend has left me totally and utterly exhausted.
And the week is not yet over.
Tomorrow is my only "day off" from work this week- and my husband and I are going to the symphony with the Rectory staff. Saturday is the first Christmas Pageant rehearsal. Sunday night is CCD class plus Vespers and Adoration (which I AM looking forward to...) and Monday starts a week chock full of more stuff.
Needless to say- I'm tired.
Lately, I've been yearning to stay at home with my son. I've been praying for my husband to find employment. I've been trying to cook and clean and be wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend, DRE and youth minister and I know I'm too small to do it without God's grace. I know that God is planning something for my husband's employment- but I YEARN with everything in my being to be a stay at home mom and to have quiet time with God. I feel like Tantalus. I see the things that I want- but I'm just not able to grasp them.
I pray that I am able to unite these little things with Jesus' suffering on the Cross. Mother Mary, please intercede for me.